The outside is healing nicely. Inside? That's where this process is so slow...
Trying to draw more, and I'm definitely walking more, but this recovery has it's own timeline, and has been really difficult. Last week was full of tough days, lethargy, and lots of negative thoughts: places I'm not used to and do not thrive in. This week? I'm optimistic, and taking it as it comes. Agonizing for a genki go-getter like me, heh!
While my energy levels are unpredictable, and I'm not quite ready to go back to work full time, I've been building up to it with this piece. Little by little, everyday, I am healing. It's just hard because I want to do more, but my body has limits.
I have been indulging in a lot of "toy therapy," including pouring over pics of old toys and YouTube reviews of them, too. MASK was an amazing line of brilliantly-engineered toys that I always loved, but hadn't thought about for a long time. Mmm, toys...
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Still on the mend, but I wanted to say hello.
I am home. I was released from the hospital Sunday afternoon, and while it's good to be here, it's been rough. I have a lot of healing to do, a new diet to deal with, but at least diabetes is getting figured out. I had an amazing team of doctors and nurses, and my surgeon said it was THE hardest procedure he's done in his life.
I don't know when I'll be able to work on anything again (I know, it's not a priority, as people keep telling me), but I'm looking forward to it. Until then, I'll be over here shuffling around, and immersing myself in toy therapy.
Well. Monday morning at 6:00am I will be at the hospital, getting prepped, and be in surgery from 8:00 am until they're done. I'm shutting down internet communication for the most part so that Vanessa and I can focus on pre- and post-surgery needs. This includes self care after a really stressful week.
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Got back to my figure drawing group, Grotesque Burlesque, and made time to finish my drawings of boylesque performer Seth Nayes from last week!
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If this post offends you, I really don' know wha to say. What I see unfolding in our capitol is so un-American, and I can't say nothing, nor do nothing. Yes, I voted, but too many people did not, and here we are.
We do have to live with it, but that is very different from accepting it. Until this cabinet of discrimination, and money and power grabs, is out I will use the tools and gifts I have to fight for what I believe is right. Only united do we stand. I stand with love, and communication. Not hate, fear, and ignorance.
I believe it's everyone's right and responsibility to act against oppression, bullying, or assault.
While I firmly believe in mental health, and that we should all go to a psychologist or counselor at least once a year, same as we would go to the dentist (well, most of us), I haven't been to one since I gradated college. It's good, it feels right, it helps make life's issues so much easier. My obstacles have been perceived need, but also the cost.
Fortunately it's offered as part of being a patient at my hospital. It was a good first chat, and I'll see him after my upcoming scan next week. I had to laugh, though, at his closing comment above. When I first saw the counselor at my college, I was resistant. I wasn't "crazy," I was just confused, unfocused after a year of being so inspired, drive, and motivated. I loved my school, but didn't know what my problem was. I realized I was creatively and emotionally stuck. I didn't know how to talk about it, not even to my closest friends. I tried that counselor, and she guided me through what was wrong without offering any kind of "fix." It doesn't work like that. I finished the year in better spirits, refocused, and grateful for her service.
The next year was better, but a month or two in I made another appointment. It was a different counselor, and I got her up to speed. Next I expressed some concerns I had, nothing nearly as major as the year before, and she just let me talk, asking few questions. When I finished, she said almost the same thing. "Well, you seem pretty self-aware. Sounds like you already know what you need to do." I laughed, and learned about myself right there. I went back a few more times over my school career to discuss everything from my art, to stress, to relationships, all visits helpful.
We'll see where this gets me, as I am currently taking on the stresses of my health, my insurance, my career path, my artwork, and the current political events. I'm very glad to have this option, and if you've considered it yourself, please go. If you have a counselor or therapist that has helped, please leave a simple comment saying so! We need to de-stigmatize this necessary office so beneficial to humans.
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